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Mixed Media Encourager Sessions / Re: She Made Today Count
« Last post by robynann on Today at 03:12:41 PM »Thanks so much Patricia...
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Patricia don't reply unless you feel like it :-) I have incredible patience. Except with myself. That's the one thing I have little of. I have no patience with anxiety. It wins period. It consumes everything i do. I can persist like i have always done with painting in spite of it, but it affects ME way too much. Now....well..ME is a little better and it's not like dealing with a swarm of mosquitoes while painting so much anymore. I know it's not considered as the right thing to do when painting (removing paint and re-doing), but i am looking for correctness. If the nose or eyes are wrong, I'm going ahead and keep changing it. I know that's a matter of "how much am i expecting", and I really do know my limits and know when it's good enough. When you keep on going over the same area so long, it becomes such a habit that what is one MORE brush stroke compared to the last 200!! Soooo easy to do just that one more................then it's back to square one again. I'm' not complaining, just stating what the impulse is that makes painting a PAIN ha ha. Anyway, i can cope with it slightly more and not get uptight so much uptight now. I know that anxiety can ruin things. I think subconsiously I really want to destroy paintings. I feel it and still persist in beating that urge by pure patience and persistance. Talk about distress! I did that really ever painting i did (couple hundred). Patience? No one knows. With medication, i am more at PEACE with myself now. The most important thing.
Patricia
